Existence is basically that. Going through life as a drone. Moving through the daily “todo” without much thought or desire. Get up, go, get back, repeat… No fulfillment in that. Waiting? For what? The time to be right will never come. If you want, you must think for yourself. Not what the “circle” or the “norm” or the “ideal” say is to be but what you want and need and desire. Push through the challenge. The prize is on the other side. Keep moving forward, even if you find yourself all alone on your journey, don’t stop. Success does not come from hanging out in the safety zone with the rest of the “aroundtoits”. Push forward and keep your eye on the prize. Do things your way and don’t give up when it feels impossible. Focus. Think logically – not emotionally. Do it your way.
You would think that being invisible would be a special power that a superhero might have. Existing without anyone being able to notice or be aware that you are there. Can YOU imagine anything super about that. Powers! Maybe, or not… maybe just maybe the cloak that is keeping you from being seen is the company that you keep the eyes that you’re in front of. Remove the cloak. NOT only will you be seen but you will also see. Clearly, from untainted vision. There’s so much beauty, out in front of you and within as well. Remove the cloak.
As I reach for the exit and look back to what’s stopping me I see emptiness. What is it that is holding me down? Looking around it’s all clouded, like a dream. Is it a dream? No, maybe a nightmare! That’s not right either. I am not a sleep. I am a live. A beating heart, breath, movement all a part of my existence. Existing, yes I exist. Numb most of the time but I am here. Where? Where is here? Listening… Nothing, I hear nothing. Feel… No, nothing there either. Look… a fog, something in the distance, can’t make it out. Why can’t I move?
At first you are more than good enough and close friends questioned why you would be with this person, that you’re not “equally yoked”, as they say. But, you see something in this person that no one else does and you’ve found love. Your love says and does all the right things and they seem to truly cherish who you are. As time passes the differences start to become more and more apparent but, not to you, but to the person that is the”love of your life”. Instead of looking within to find the problem they search you and find bits and pieces to pick at and pick at and eventually break down the “love of their life” into a broken mess. Now you hear “your not the person I fell in love with” and along with that comes the many complaints, corrections, control and ridicule, followed by not a word of repentance or an apology because its “your fault” “if you would get things right you would be treated better”. You start to question your value and wonder what you’re doing wrong. You can’t please the un-pleasable.
“Your just too much trouble”, is often heard from your “beloved”
OKAY, STOP RIGHT THERE!
It may get better for a split second after a few promises and a roll in the sack but it escalates from here.
A vicious cycle that has a sweet spot at the top of the ride, but each time it goes around it gets worse.
Get off the ride before it stops, on it’s own, FOREVER.
You are worth more as you are. Even broken pieces can be put back together as long as they are not shattered. God loves us no matter what. Its called agape. Love yourself and don’t worry about poor abuser they never cared about you only to control you. God bless. Don’t give up. Happiness is a choice, make the choice to be happy. Be positive and remain positive
It all comes out in the wash
this life we live. Strange how we repeat and repeat what we repeat just to end up repeating it again. It’s like no matter how much one tries to adjust and change it seems like history, as they say, repeats itself. Alterations made with intent to change and re-create and bring a more desirable outcome end in an individual discovering that they are who they are and no matter how hard they run from it they face themselves when looking in the mirror. Embracing that person and working with the individual they see and have tried so hard to erase can actually, in a twisted way, blossom into a productive and radiant being. Human being that is.
I’ve heard it a lot from a few lately and many through the years. I have said the words myself and well never really got an answer. Who really expects an answer?
It’s time to take a good look back, you know, reflect on our past. Past can even be yesterday or this morning, not just the years that you have put behind you but those recently that have been significant in your life.
Of course some of us don’t enjoy going down memory lane. Fine. Don’t, I’m just talking about reflecting on the individuals that have been supportive and devoted friends. I think maybe even think if we have been equally there for our closest most significant buds.
We call a lot of people our friends, even a few or just one our best friend, when it’s convenient.
So who is REAL and who is just a person you happen to know?